I remember when I was 5 years old, running through the grass at my old elementary school. The sound of the wind whooshing by my ears, as I was running as fast as I could like a Transformer. I would run until I just collapsed on the grass from exhaustion at recess. I would lay there as I caught my breath, hearing my heart pounding like a drum. I would feel and smell the moist cut grass around me and I would just look up at the clouds, thinking about how that cloud looks likes like a pig.
It’s funny how somethings have changed now that I’m older. Now when I lay in a field, I always think to myself, “Maybe I shouldn’t be laying in this field filled with who knows what, with allergies to pollen and a fear of snakes, but just the other day, I did anyways and I said, “Who cares.”
As I was laying in this field the other day, with the winds barely brushing my forehead and as I was gazing up at the blue skies, watching the clouds slowly move by and trying not to focus on the yellow flowers above me, it brought me back to my childhood and made me think again. Not about how the clouds looked like something familiar to me, but thinking about my life since I’ve been born, my childhood memories and where my life is heading.
Maybe all of this thinking was brought on because this past weekend, I celebrated my 13th birthday, backwards and I couldn’t help but wondering, when you get older, is it all really downhill from there? or uphill? I still think it’s all uphill. Yes, maybe we all appear older, but I’ve never felt younger or more wiser in my life and I know every year on my birthday, I always feel the same way. Maybe I have no clue on where my life is headed, but for now, I can only live in the moment and feel like the luckiest guy in the world, to have such amazing friends and family, who in one way or another, celebrated with me feeling younger and wiser. Cheers everyone!
Photographed by Aaron Dieppa
Checkout my dad in this old family photo. I am nearly the same age as him in this photo and I’m starting to see how I look more and more like him every year. Yes, that’s me on his lap too.
3 comments
cindee bae - uphill for sure, happy belated 13th brian!!!
christina - nice…love the feel of freedom from lying in the grass. i used to do it all the time as a kid, and i think it would be great to lie there and watch the clouds pass by! so happy we got to hang for your birthday!
barbara dieppa - Your family I’m sure is very proud of you! Keep chasing those dreams like a transformer!!!